2010 was quite the year. It was marked most profoundly by the passing of my father from cancer. Working at a relatively new job and trying to grow my business in the midst of his illness not only was a great strain but also put into sharp focus that my priorities needed to be re-examined. I had taken on a job as a project that grew into more of a commitment. It took far too much away from my ability to invest and grow my business and skill set in financial management as well as bookkeeping.
Also, through the roller coaster progression of my father's illness, I found such deep support and understanding from my clients. Alternately, several of my clients experienced losses of their own and were comforted in knowing I at least understood what they were experiencing. It's incredible how far a little understanding and comfort can go, verbalized or not.
I have been incredibly fortunate in having such great clients. This helped me refocus on my business: these kind, supportive small business owners and non-profit managers are where my heart is and where my energies should be going. Also, in looking at the legacy of my dad, as a man who did his own thing; as a brilliant musician, cantankerous business owner, and voracious consumer of books, I am redirecting myself to the path I had set out on over a year ago to start have my own business and craft my own way.
Seven months later, and with a new year started I can finally really look forward and live the positive lessons I had been telling myself I had learned from the pain of our loss. It is a long slow process and a long slow crawl to finding a new normal. It has been helped by finding meaning in my work again and in keeping such good company.
In memory of Teddy B. Tom.
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